my legendary carrot boy.

i almost cried. i felt forgotten. because at 10.21pm, baby hasnt called me. and my cordless phone isnt working at the wrong time. and darling's phone that i'm using now, the n73 gave me problems, denying my call to him. i quickly tried to change to my own 7610, but i couldnt open the casing. i changed back to the n73 again frantically, finally i could call. but when i reached him far away in tekong, he told me to wait.

he was teaching his buddy how to do some army stuff.

still, i felt like crying, and i did somehow.

after that, i choose to believe that i am not forgotten.

talked for a while to darling, he was woken up at 4am plus suddenly, from the normal 5.30am. he's deprived of 1hr and 30mins of sleep. though he claims that he had a break from 10 to 12pm, sleep isnt cumulative. and he still had to do lots of stuff.

guess men have to do what they deem is right. even at the expense of other stuff which may be more important.

he clinged to the phone onto the very last minute. so i still chose to believe he hadnt forgotten me.

but before he puts it down, he forgot the usual greeting, the "i love you baby" usual.

so i ran into my brother's girlfriend and ranted and tear.

she said after a while i'll get so used to it, it wont even matter even if he does not call. i hope i'm that strong. she had already adopted that nonchalant attitude, that take-it-easy attitude, that whether-you-miss-me-is-really-not-an-issue approach. i wish i could do that.

for such a lovely boyfriend, i cant bring myself to do that.

but why can you, when i was so cute today. i was pikachu. i talked to him in pokemon language. all i wanted was for him to smile with my messages when i couldnt reach him in any other way. i hope he did at least appreciate my efforts to keep him happy. even if baby, you have a different sense of humour.

he did reply. he said "darling let me remind you, fei fei is a softoy lol. darlingi love you. pikachu, i go sleep already, good night."

so i'm half convinced i'm not forgotten. and i'm totally convinced i cried for nothing.

carrot. i love you.