9th day without boyfriend

woke up at 12pm. slept at 1.30 pm. woke up again at 2.30 pm. shuai quan came to pick me up at 3pm, to fax and photocopy our ic to process our pay. he sent me back again, while on the way i bought KFC for my younger brother's birthday.

it's his birthday again. and yet i cant give him anything. i wish we could restore our wealth we used to have. i wish my dad had chosen the righter one.

i saw my dad's medication and bandage. brother told me, something grew on dad's feet. if it cant heal, it might be amputated. poor dad. jaded. worried. felt like crying, but didnt want to. he's still slogging for the family. he's a strong man.

hope it's not the diabetes attacking. hope he dont see it as a small problem. hope he can be saved.

honey. i need you.

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honey called. at 6.47pm. thats so early! so talked to him. told him what happened. made a crazy mistake! he asked me to put down the phone, and i really did, didnt know it was just a passing remark. then he called back. HAHA. sorry honey!

he was rejoicing over the 60 cents pokka green tea in army from the vending machine. so cheap! i've got green tea at home too! and he said i was a copy cat (:

he went for his teabreak. so we put it down. then he called again. he's gonna do his laundry! (FAMILY MAN! SO ATTRACTIVE!) so while i wait, i chat with a few people, like patrick, han tiong, yee koon, syafiq, bernard. though they're all guys honey, i didnt initiate with them. i swear. how could i, when boyfriend's so far away, and so is my heart, with you (: and syafiq has 2 kids already. cool.

honey called later, he had to study for a test. so i asked him to. until he called back, again, some time later that he dozes off every after 10 words he reads. i tested him. he said it's all common sense. so he asked me. what are symptoms of heat stroke? i said giddyness. he said there you go! it's so common sense. LOL. then he listed out all the others. then he said things that didnt really make sense to me. so i asked him to sleep. (:

and he smsed me" i love you honey, you the best girlfriend. serious."
whether it's just to pacify or a genuine confession, i take that it's the latter, and so touched, i dropped a tear. a tear so miraculous, it lifted my today's burden instantaneously.

darling, my carrot, my swee hin, i dont know what could i tell you but i love you so.

"im in, so deep. you know i'm such a fool for you..."