Tuesday, September 30, 2008

2nd day

forgot to mention. i knew alex, ethan, johnston and sherman. (: for now.

slacked the day at home. got quite excited over the safra card that darling MAY apply for. but after looking at the cost, he decided to give it a go. still, i went to look at the benefits, and got a little excited over those things.

researched about night safari and the omnimax theatre in the science centre. i want to go there again! relive childhood memories. please. went over to his house at night. (: had what i forgot. but dinner was in my house i think. (:

Monday, September 29, 2008

our first outing since sooooo long.

went to school. but was looking forward for my outing with darling all along. i couldnt get him for quite some time. so i went to look for elaine first. she was lurking around there because she's on course. her LANEIGE course. so i went around, and i saw my MOLTON BROWN booth! it's fantastic man. and i fell in love with devada. one of the scents. $76 for a creamy body wash. but i'm not going to buy it. it's a money sucker. i rather wait till i go to europe to get it. it'll be SOOoooo much cheaper. i swear.

Finally got my darling to answer. before i got angry with him, he explained that something's wrong with his phone. so he's saved. and i took a bus to rendezvous hotel TO GET TO SOMEWHERE ELSE. what were you thinking man. hahas.

some miscommunication somewhere. sorry my darling! and i had macs in some L..... place. while the army boys my boyfriend was hanging out with were playing LAN at $1.50 per hour.

thereafter, watched my best friend's girlfriend. too sexually explicit and vulgar. didnt really like it but i didnt really mind the atrocities.

went back home. my darling is near bald. (:

Sunday, September 28, 2008

boyfriend's out!

and so, i waited, patiently at 2.45 pm &bought honey's fiesta cheesecake for him. together with his sister, we picked him up from pa sir ris. hahas. didnt do anything much there yet, just that he and his bunkmates bought some ben and jerry's . we went to NTUC to stock up on our foodstuffs. thereafter, he went home to get changed.

didnt do anything much, had kfc's AND i went back, sadly, home, because tomorrow's a monday. and monday=school.

u see the equation? it sucks.

and a stupid man touched me, whether accidentally or purposely is not the issue. i'm mentally traumatised. DAMN THE BASTARDS.

16th day w/o boyfriend

a saturday. at home. couldnt think of anyone out as kai wei is working for f1, and yixian went for a trip to thailand. so i stayed at home, and finished another hong kong drama 千里姻缘兜错圈。 honey could start talking to me at around 1 pm already! miracuously. but they are required to do some area cleaning anyway. so just talk barely a few minutes, he has to go do his thing again.

he shouts," 16 hours to book out day, book out book out book out day!"
i said " darling let me remind you, it's 16hours and 20 mins!" hahahahaas.

not that u want to be a wet blanket, not that i dont want to see you, but i like to be the wet blanket. (: like how u always remind me that fei fei is a soft toy! and darling,fei fei stands at the door everyday, keeping a lookout for you, but you never came. but the thing is, he only stood for 1 minute! HAHAHAH. THEN HE FORGETS ABOUT YOU! lol.

good joke!

honey went o the gym, to workout. i cant wait to see you bald! and your high forehead with the m shape! cool!

and i asked him, "will you kiss me for te next three days that you'll be around?"
i love his reply, because it's-so-not-to-the-point-but-you-will-get-it kinda reply,"not when i am in uniform, will kena confined for 8 weeks. otherwise, why not?"

(: romantic boyfriend i have.

&iloveyouso.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

15th day w/o boyfriend

shock of my life. only laura and i was present in class during assembly. great turnouts. we were thinking previous record was 13 people. out of 20. cool

today, ended up having 7. not bad a number! hahas

celebrated laura's birthday! though it was a day late. but nevertheless, we still decided to go ahead with it! was talking in school. to keith, vicky, reuben and i. wow! unforgettable! cool conversation!

did nt go for asp. called yixian up and realised it's today she's going to thailand. bon voyage! take care!

watched a new hongkong drama 千里姻缘兜错圈. wanted to rewatch this very long ago but couldnt find the cd! hahas. finally found it! i'm gonna chiong it tonight! wahahha.

darling called at 7pm. sorry i was sleeping! i didnt hear it until it was 8pm. called him back but soon after dad called me out for dinner. and darling was asked to fall in. so in the meantime, talked to dad, and brother, and rambutan for desert. exchanging cantonese knowledge and conversing in broken hokkien. laughed at my superficial grasp of the dialect and the stupid sentence structures i came up with. like you first learnt english and you just know the word table and chair and you try to piece the 2 things up to form a sentence to convey your thing. it didnt work, very badly, and i created a joke. (:

then honey called again. talked about him having some 'rich freaks' in the bunk he postulated. maybe from the stuff they bring, from the way the act and their posture or even their way of speaking made him think so. anyway, he had to turn in soon. so yeah.

honey, i'm still waiting. come back soon! remember you still have a girlfriend! hahas.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

14th day w/o boyfriend

today, felt like not going to school. nothing much to say though. but i went swimming right after school and coincidentally, vincent, qi yuan and si kai was there too. LOL.

saying that i was slim is much considered a compliment. or rather, a gift, as how many would be so dishonest to say i'm slim? other than boyfriend i suppose(and u better agree with me...) haha.

so swam like 1.2km this time, and i felt swimming was actually not a feat at all. it was, a breeze. after that was indulging in my ralph lauren body scrub and my loccitane shampoo and conditioner in free water from the swimming complex, all alone. (: but it's okay, sometimes friends just have stuff to do. and thereafter, bought a cake for laura's birthday today, but celebrating tomorrow. (:

finished my hong kong drama 洗冤录1。was just rewatching it because i forgot the content and it was a good one. talked to boyfriend but not for long, as usual. told boyfriend about my eye candy, and the guys i'm hanging out with recently. (: well, it's good to be truthful.

honey, what i love about you is your generousity and your capacity to forgive and forget. your undivided trust also, was the string that had been tying the relationship together, while i apologize for my paranoia and narrowmindedness for the mess i've created. but like i said, you're too handsome to ignore, and too cute to give away. pardon my possessiveness. but you're too good to be true.

i'll let my picture of you live, as long as i live (:

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

13th day w/o boyfriend

i'm happy that because on the 16th day, i can see my boyfriend.
i'm pretty sad that it's not it yet.

anyway, was fucking offended by this person in class. (: friends would know what i mean. despo shit, hypocrite, irritating, better dont talk to me, because i dont like the way you look, talk or laugh. this is my first time blogging about you. you should feel honored. to have ruined my pages with my mentioning of you. and you smell, like a failed slut. but in the first place, you dont even have qualities of a slut because they might, in some ways, fare better than you.

and mr fauzi remembers my name! it's a good feeling to know that people do remember you by your name, &because of that, i shall, try to remember people's names by heart, and really remember them so well i can tell who's who even after 8 months down the road not seeing them. (: because my teacher, hadnt called me since 2 years ago! hahahaha!

went to do some ic thing with brother. took some stupid pictures. had to beg him for it. glad i did so. otherwise he wouldnt know how he's looking like when he's sec in future. quite a good looking boy with some character people. and hi friends, your sisters need a husband? bid now! LOL.

hi brother, you dont know how much you're hurting your sister by not studying. you were so achieving, you bring home awards every other month. you are a special student. you study harder stuff than everybody else in your external social circle. you used to excel in sports and academic. what happened to you now? did we deprive you of your right share of concern? you know studying is not a uphill task for you. you've got better brains than your stupid sister here has. yet, why do you discount yourself?

-and i cried, in the train, when you told me how risky things were in school. you cannot give up at this point of time. o levels can be learnt in one day. (: one day is more than sufficient.

&brother said that my speech was so touching, he wanted to cry himself. LOL. =p i was quite happy bout it, because it shows that he's thinking, and repentant.

went home and sleep after having macs for brother. quite a teachable kid. (: just that not very gentlemanly. i had him carry my bag for me. he ought to do so. and given his height, it looks as if i'm dating him. HAHAHA. especially when i tried sleeping on his shoulders and stuff like that. i wonder if boyfriend's friends sees it, will they report to yee swee hin saying "hey! when you're in army, your girlfriend had another guy! "

haha. talked to honey. at 10pm. slept from 6 till 10pm. hehs. and darling, you didnt disturb my sleep, you were my alarm clock! LOL.

carrot was like " so did the guys send you home yesterday? "
i was like " nope. they did not!"
carrot " so sad arh?!"
of course my reply had to come naturally " ya loh so sad."

then he went, "OH ! SO U ADMIT IT WAS SAD!"
HAHAHS! TRICK QUESTION! lol.

I too, asked another trick question which i couldnt remember at this point of time, so i'll blog it once it surfaces. well, i miss my darling. come out soon. i've got a surprise for ya (:
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3 more days to book out day, book out book out book out day!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

12th day w/o boyfriend

was deciding if i should go school. then again. if i dont, i'll be missing out on alot. so i had to force myself away from fei fei's tummy and get up an get changed!

darling i miss you. that goes without saying. nobody calls me now in the morning, not that i need you to, but i miss your morning sleepyhead voice which is unparalleled for is it simply unique.
but like what the f*** ed up poster we see on tekong's jetty, it's not what you lose, it's about what you gain in the future. so guess i just have to accept your temporary absence (:

school was so boring. 11turnouts is the new record. previously was 13 people. cool thing. school not worth mentioning, because it's so boring. maybe the only thing worth mentioning was that i had to shit during mdm selvi's class and i took 20 mins (: hahas. u can see how bored i was!

&I FOUND OUT! AFTER 3 MONTHS I ACTUALLY HAVE 2 BREAKTIME ON TUESDAY! HAHAHHAS.

skipped geog asp. and headed to outram park. dont wanna elaborate because it's nothing much, just that eugene came and took the ic photocopies from me and that's it.

went home. watched hongkong drama. waited till 7.30pm, went to jog. got some sort of stiches on my tummy or whatever part u call that of your body i ran only 4 rounds. played badminton after that. qi yuan is so hilarious! he doesnt move much when he hits the ball. and because of that, he made alot of funny moves and postures. =D

honey called at 9.30. sorry that i didnt concentrate talking to you. i'll try to be at home by 9.30 next time and you'll have my full attention! (: because u have rights to it.

and thanks kai wei for buying my pudding milk tea! love ya. and thanks yixian for giving me directions to the place. thanks honey for not forgetting to call me every single day. sorry for not reciprocating your love for me equally.

nevertheless, i'm gonna be magikarp tomorrow. as of now. (: just for you.

Monday, September 22, 2008

11th day w/o boyfriend

school was fun. but i kept eating. after having to drain an essay out of my brain early in the morning! at 8am, my stomach kept calling for replenishment. so ate mi fen! and the vegetarian sausage was totally disgusting.

my day passed fairly quickly. geog, maths, lit lecture. i didnt sleep in my lessons today. aminah's lesson in the afternoon was a breeze too. though i was called up to answer some questions. oh well, it's okay, as long as she stops catching my skirt! LOL.

went home atraight after school. i shower soon after, but i was sooo sooo soooo! tired. i fell asleep with my wet hair.

and honey, i vaguely remember him calling at 8pm. i know i have alot of things to tell him, but i cant remember what. so i didnt really talk, and i was so tired, i didnt know what i was saying myself. he's going for his supper, and later gym-ing and i, sleepyhead, had to just go sleep. again. he called much later, at 10.26pm. my head was so heavy, i havent recovered from my anaemic-like condition having blurred vision and giddyness, i talked to him, still not sure of what to say, he had to sleep soon. good night honey

&today, i didnt receive any good night messages from him. guess he's sleepy like me too. i sent one over, to remind him that he havent done it. then again, he didnt promise to do so today, and most probably he's sleeping already. so,

good night honey. i'm already on another wait for your call tomorrow (:

10th day w/o boyfriend

hi boyfriend. your girlfriend is going swimming, alone. because friends either do not exercise at all, or DON NOT KNOW HOW TO SWIM, or had a bad eyebrow cut and cant come out at all.

the external reasons are that because i'm too fat and i cant possibly ask boys out (why boys? because they're usually more proficient at this sport and more of them able to go) but anyway,

darling, wish you can come out soon, because your girlfriend, is awaiting another swimming session with you (:

going out now, at 2.06! doing a 1km ! ONLY, yes because i dont want another muscle ache and walking retardedly backwards my school stairs tomorrow. 1km, that's it.

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honey called, at 9pm. talk for a while. he was playing murderer and police thingy. after that, we were talking about his childhood friend, sharon whose boyfriend is his current bunkmate. what a coincidence. but it's not the first time drawing such connections already, singapore being such a small country, allow people meet so frequently like air molecules in a balloon. as for china, it's probably like solid molecules. hahas.

and boyfriend was telling me how he taught his childhood girlfriend's brother to steal in bedok NTUC. ! those hotwheels toycars that were in trend of those times. and he having to learn his lesson the hard way. and i told him, u should have known you cant do that! and he retorted" that's the problem! nobody told me i cant do that!'' and he was made to buy the toy car after threatened to call in for the police.

glad that he never stole ever since. (: but, wait. darling, you did steal. i know it's a little mushy, but you did steal my heart ;p

the greatest offence you made, was not that you denied paying for it. it's the fact that you took it and never did return (:

and so, made a slight joke out of yixian. hahas! xian i'll tell you what happened sometime! it was hilarious! and he had to put down the phone with me! 'to call yixian'! HAHA.

so after he did his laundry(after calling yixian), he called me back. at 10. chatted about his bunkmates, if he was doing well, whether he's gonna go eat out with them. and stuff like that. it was 10.25, and it's time to sleep. and so there he went. good night.

he said army's good for us. i replied i thought so too.

boy, you're too important for me to forget. and i feel your prescence always. like you're still here with me. and the nightly viewing of your handsome face, makes me yearn for you.

i'm addicted, to you.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

9th day without boyfriend

woke up at 12pm. slept at 1.30 pm. woke up again at 2.30 pm. shuai quan came to pick me up at 3pm, to fax and photocopy our ic to process our pay. he sent me back again, while on the way i bought KFC for my younger brother's birthday.

it's his birthday again. and yet i cant give him anything. i wish we could restore our wealth we used to have. i wish my dad had chosen the righter one.

i saw my dad's medication and bandage. brother told me, something grew on dad's feet. if it cant heal, it might be amputated. poor dad. jaded. worried. felt like crying, but didnt want to. he's still slogging for the family. he's a strong man.

hope it's not the diabetes attacking. hope he dont see it as a small problem. hope he can be saved.

honey. i need you.

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honey called. at 6.47pm. thats so early! so talked to him. told him what happened. made a crazy mistake! he asked me to put down the phone, and i really did, didnt know it was just a passing remark. then he called back. HAHA. sorry honey!

he was rejoicing over the 60 cents pokka green tea in army from the vending machine. so cheap! i've got green tea at home too! and he said i was a copy cat (:

he went for his teabreak. so we put it down. then he called again. he's gonna do his laundry! (FAMILY MAN! SO ATTRACTIVE!) so while i wait, i chat with a few people, like patrick, han tiong, yee koon, syafiq, bernard. though they're all guys honey, i didnt initiate with them. i swear. how could i, when boyfriend's so far away, and so is my heart, with you (: and syafiq has 2 kids already. cool.

honey called later, he had to study for a test. so i asked him to. until he called back, again, some time later that he dozes off every after 10 words he reads. i tested him. he said it's all common sense. so he asked me. what are symptoms of heat stroke? i said giddyness. he said there you go! it's so common sense. LOL. then he listed out all the others. then he said things that didnt really make sense to me. so i asked him to sleep. (:

and he smsed me" i love you honey, you the best girlfriend. serious."
whether it's just to pacify or a genuine confession, i take that it's the latter, and so touched, i dropped a tear. a tear so miraculous, it lifted my today's burden instantaneously.

darling, my carrot, my swee hin, i dont know what could i tell you but i love you so.

"im in, so deep. you know i'm such a fool for you..."

Friday, September 19, 2008

8th day w/o boyfriend.

day was good. first lesson was GP. and i did something so so retarded i couldnt forgive myself. (:

it was mr ganesh's lesson, and he received a call. he picked it up and went out of the classroom in a hurry. taking advantage of his absence, i started walking around the class. and i looked down the floors to get a bird's eye view of the parade square. i saw neat rows and columns of boys learning skipping from some external trainers. i stood there for some time, then someone was calling out my name. i didnt want to care. i ignored it. i continued looking. then people again, called out for me. i wonder why did they call me for. i decided to ignore it, again. THEN, they called out even louder and simultaneously. i decided to turn around then i saw mr's ganesh looking at me! HAHAHAHAHS! SO RETARDED! he's back so silently! and i was damn embarrassed!

then during our breaktime, my friend yi ting, received a call from her friend. she told her from, " sorry, i'm eating! (yi ting) HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. get the joke? then i was like "YA! I KNOW YOU'RE YITING! " lol

decided to go play the piano after school with reuben. but when we walked around the school, we didnt have the luck, it's either taken or not available. we went to the auditorium, then somebody barked! LOL. THEN REUBEN BARKED BACK! hahahs. in the end, we found out i was 2 other guys. LOL. damn hilarious.

went home. was alone. wanted to go jog but kai wei's working. yixian's with her friend. vincent's leg is injured. and carrot's in camp. headed home. waiting for brother's return. played viwawa with vincent and keep winning. LOL. but i suck at sushido.

boyfriend called damn early today at around 8.40pm. he slept early too. he said i was a loser for all the stunts i've done. especially that fact that i almost wanted to dance for yiting to see when i saw the people dancing!

fei fei and my life isnt gonna be complete without you baby. you're needed badly here.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

7th day w/o boyfriend

thursdays are boring days. nothing much to speak about. ended school at 2.10. but had to sign autographs for mdm selvi and miss yeo. wrote a little poem for them. (:

had to go to raffles place to take honey's driving license from his sister. so headed down. saw her. she wanted to go fetch rui xing once he book out. on the 28th. i wonder if she wants to give hom a surprise. so i shan't tell carrot.

in the meantime, i decided to give kai wei a surprise since she's working alone in milennia walk today for the first time. and accompany her to lunch seeing she's such poor thing. so i had to pretend that i'm not actually having any sort of intention to go to her workplace. she's telling me how bored she is, alone, without a single customer to entertain even. i was damn worried that she'll go for break even before i saw her.

at 3.45pm, i met ruixing's sister. got what i wanted. initially had plans to save that 45 cents from raffles to city hall. then because of the fear that kai wei will suggest anything silly, i decided to take the train. to my horror. kai wei smsed me" i think i'm going to have a break at 4pm"

beads of perspiration (metaphorically) forced out of my pores. so stressed! HAHA! had to rush from raffles place standard chartered building to milennia walk plus buying her her favourite pudding milk tea in 10 mins!

couldnt take it. panicked like crazy. so i frantically had to come up with something, which doesnt seem suspicious and at the same time convincing. so i replied," you should go at 4.30pm instead.(so i have max of 40 mins to do what i have to) otherwise the remaining 5hours you're gonna spend it very bitterly. experience. (i had to add this in to sound more professional, like i'm really experienced! hahas!) "

so i ran man! from city hall mrt station to suntec, to the fountain of wealth, to finally, milennia walk. panted and panted, hoping kai wei wouldnt go for her break so soon. and what was most comforting is none other than seeing her from afar, that she, had heeded my advice and stood silly looking at ghost passersby (no passerby at all)!

haha. hehs. nothing beats the way my lonely friend smiled and surprised look on her face. all that running was nothing, it even has slimming effects (:

Left after her lunch break. went to bugis to look for elaine(bro's gf) saw her charismatic colleagus louis. (: he's so funny i swear. but instead of leaving the place at 6pm, we left at 7.20pm. well done! upon reaching causeway point, met elaine's friends. had dinner and went home. honey called in the midst of my herbal chicken meal.

boyfriend, i love you so.
come back to me soon, so you can beat me at 7handpoker again and again. (:

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

6th day w/o boyfriend

psy . . . duck? ! ! ! !

YES! TODAY I AM THE POKEMON PSYDUCK!

lol

now, boyfriend, u know what i've transformed into! hahahs.

slept during spencer's class. damn sleepy. but nevermind. i've recorded his lesson. i'm gonna hear it again. LOL. and he didnt really care if i was asleep throughout. cause i'm too sleepy to internalise anything anyway. and maths test was finished leaving 50 mins to rest and do nothing.

met kai wei after school! so fun! she treated me to pudding milk tea. FAVOURITE DRINK! and i discovered a new way to faster reach the other side of suntec. walk through the fountain of wealth! hahas. she's gonna work for novita. some humidifier thingy sales. and met her friend sotong. he's so funny! he's so hooked onto his work that when he reached kaiwei's counter-to-be, he had to put all appliances in place! hahas. employee of the month!

went for pepper lunch. and photos by the fountain and the super huge koi. noob. we walked as if we were tourists roaming singapore for the first time. hahas.

anyway. i had fun. (: i love kai wei! (:

boyfriend called early. at 9.50pm. elated! euphoric! i got to talk to boyfriend for 34 more mins than usual. he ate 3 kinds of starches in one meal. french fries, rice and bread. and the best part of meal was chicken soup! not the brothy kind but the creamy kind!

heart. you're forever hot. and i long to see your semi bald head. & i'll greet you, " botak carrot!"

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

5th day w/o boyfriend

having a rich boyfriend does not help. for the material fulfillment does not mend the cavaties in my heart. and leaving $2k with me is no use, because i, dont want to be your finanacial burden at all. just that today, i spent some money using your card to buy myself the natural confectionery candies i yearn so much for, for i am only left with pathetic a $12 to survive the week. with my pockets running dry, and the magnetic effect my sweet tooth and the candy is generating, i opened my wallet. fumbled for the blue card. SWIPE! your card is drained of another $6, while i happily dip into my new packet of sweets.

heavenly. though my ever-disappearing moolah is purturbing.

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your very absence, kills me.

maybe the only news that brings me alive again, is that out of my so many failures, my general paper isn't one of them. that does not mean that i'm knowledgeable, neither does it say that i'm totally oblivious to world's issues. it's merely a confirmation of my bullshitting skills and basic english standards that i possess, like everyone else do. for it's not a glorious pass; only a humble mark to make my day better.

fynette says" dont let grades draw perimeters around your life"
i'm sad to say i never once thought of that. not even a flash of it. at all.

still, it does not fill up the emptiness that i'm feeling everyday without love.

love exists, in very stingy amounts. for his time is no longer his. the tyranny in the camp, and the camp leaders; hateful but hopeless. the only way out: do their bidding.

i'm like a dope, a pathetic lovelorn. i put my handphone by my heart hoping it rings by the time time reaches 10. my irreparable acts, will become my downfall, yet i still heed the nameless signals and wrecked direction boards. my irrational heart never ceases to bring me again and again, to all the wrong places and encourages my concious wrong doings.

but my wait is often, in vain.

school. dont talk about it. was thinking to skip asp. but we decided to go anyway. accompanied poor ben till his tuition time arrives.

went home. was finding someone to chat but no one else seems online. then managed to chat with patrick, fynette, yixian and jia min. still nothing would beat my dying desire to hear my boyfriend speak.

you're my life.

Monday, September 15, 2008

my legendary carrot boy.

i almost cried. i felt forgotten. because at 10.21pm, baby hasnt called me. and my cordless phone isnt working at the wrong time. and darling's phone that i'm using now, the n73 gave me problems, denying my call to him. i quickly tried to change to my own 7610, but i couldnt open the casing. i changed back to the n73 again frantically, finally i could call. but when i reached him far away in tekong, he told me to wait.

he was teaching his buddy how to do some army stuff.

still, i felt like crying, and i did somehow.

after that, i choose to believe that i am not forgotten.

talked for a while to darling, he was woken up at 4am plus suddenly, from the normal 5.30am. he's deprived of 1hr and 30mins of sleep. though he claims that he had a break from 10 to 12pm, sleep isnt cumulative. and he still had to do lots of stuff.

guess men have to do what they deem is right. even at the expense of other stuff which may be more important.

he clinged to the phone onto the very last minute. so i still chose to believe he hadnt forgotten me.

but before he puts it down, he forgot the usual greeting, the "i love you baby" usual.

so i ran into my brother's girlfriend and ranted and tear.

she said after a while i'll get so used to it, it wont even matter even if he does not call. i hope i'm that strong. she had already adopted that nonchalant attitude, that take-it-easy attitude, that whether-you-miss-me-is-really-not-an-issue approach. i wish i could do that.

for such a lovely boyfriend, i cant bring myself to do that.

but why can you, when i was so cute today. i was pikachu. i talked to him in pokemon language. all i wanted was for him to smile with my messages when i couldnt reach him in any other way. i hope he did at least appreciate my efforts to keep him happy. even if baby, you have a different sense of humour.

he did reply. he said "darling let me remind you, fei fei is a softoy lol. darlingi love you. pikachu, i go sleep already, good night."

so i'm half convinced i'm not forgotten. and i'm totally convinced i cried for nothing.

carrot. i love you.

4th day w/o boyfriend

was late for school. forgot to set back my alarm to 6.35 after waking up to greet my honey, " morning sunshine!"

=.=. so woke up damn late. must be from the tiredness of running too much. i am suffering from muscle aches. terribly. but school was so boring. and time seems abundant with boyfriend not around. still, boredom kills me. i wish boyfriend is here.(:

darling if you could bring me in, i'll wash your clothes for you, and your fatigue too. because i'm the perfect girlfriend! haha. too bad i cant sneak in. =p SO SAD!

i became pikachu today, randomly sent him, "pi pi pi pikachu!"
i'm gonna be chansey tomorrow. i've decided upon it. lol.

and ms aminah is calling me again and again. sigh. why me?!

went hone at 6pm. ate and showered. tidied up my notes, and waiting for his call now. and fei fei becoming naughty. he bit my hand just now.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

3rd day with boyfriend not around!

today's sunday honey. slept at 5.30am just to send darling a sms before i go to sleep. mahjong ended with me having to pay 'tuition fees' of $7.10 for a beginner. it's okay, it must be because my lucky star isnt around with me. that is my carrot boy. haha.

darling, bottom line is, come out soon.

and so, had actually decided to go to shuai's house after i went home and slack for a while. who knows, shuai asked me to go for another round of running. but he has to buy a pair of shoes first, so he drove us to toa payoh for a 25% discount off a red pair of adidas street soccer shoe. it was $77. and we had mac chicken for brunch.

before that, shuai did a beautiful stunt again. in looking for a car parking lot in the toa payoh hdb hub, he drove into the car park, and manovered around. within 20 seconds, he blindly drove into a narrow passageway which are for cars to drive out of the carpark. well done. luckily there's such a thing called "within grace period" otherwise i dont know how much we have to pay for the wrong turn.

then, another stunt. so we found another car park after the wrong turn, and it says "FULL" at the electronic board, and he still turned in. =.=. luckily there were cars coming out of their lot otherwise, well done. LOL

so we met vincent, and shi kai for running. i ran 10 rounds (: burn fats again. cool.

thereafter, shuai sent us to his house for steamboat. (: gain fats again. cool.

played moneyless mahjong, steamboat, talk cock. then brother asked me to buy contact lenses' solution. there goes my fun.

and baby had time to talk to me at around 6.30pm, as he had time till 7.45pm. and army is damn 'fun' i would say, because for every question the sergent asks you, you must reply " outstanding'! and when they ask you when is your pop(passing out parade) you must answer "many many more months sir!"

LOL. all the boys in my life cheers me up. (:

Saturday, September 13, 2008

boyfriend cooped for 2nd day

sian, supposed to go play badminton. woodlands community centre(CC), as well as fuchun's fully booked. Yiming says there's still a slot in marsiling's one. so i'm asked to book it. but i went to the fuchun's one instead thinking it's the marsiling one. so when i'm already on 912, kai wei called thinking there's something wrong. indeed! HAHAHAHS, THE MARSILING ONE IS JUST OPPOSITE MY HOUSE! AND I WENT SO FAR AWAY!

anyway, then i got down the bus, and took another 912 back on the opposite side of the road. before the next bus came, i decided to clear my wallet. so i took out the receipts, and before i could throw them away, the bus came along. i panicked and got on the bus. to my horror, I ACTUALLY TRIED TO TAP THE RECEIPT ON THE THINGY! hahahahahahas! how stupid can i get ?!

so got home. and came out again to meet kai wei in the gym. together with yiming. saw vincent too! in the end, i went on the treadmill for 25mins, but i got stiches, so i got down soon after, and lifted some weights, and we went to the track to run.

i ran around the track for 7 rounds (: FAT BURNING! wahahahaha.

played badminton for around 1hr and a half. with yiming and vincent and kai wei. loser team is supposed to treat drinks. so the losers are : KAI WEI AND VINCENT!

yay! =p i won! wahahaha. ate dinner together, and went back.

mahjong session tonight. but first let me sms my boyfriend.

boyfriend, i miss you like crazy. i was so sad when u didnt call me by 10pm, i thought what happened. hmm, you had a long day yeah? but perservere! (: i'm keeping in shape till you come back home again (:

"i miss you like crazy.... nothing more than i can say... " some song by backstreet boys or boyzone or whatever, i dont even know the lyrics, but just dedicating it to my carrot, i know you'll know what i'm thinking (:

and more stupid stories coming up....haha

baby's going green

didnt go school today. baby accompanied me to the polyclinic, my number was 126, thus we went for mac's breakfast before seeing the doctor. the doctor was damn fun because he didnt ask much about my condition. instead, he was talking to me about other irrelevant stuff regarding my health. interesting!

thereafter, we went back to baby's house. he bought mini packet of powder detergent and nail clippers. i should have forced him to cut his nails. it's damn long already. sigh. didnt have enough time though.

went to pasir ris in his dad's car, and shortly after, it was already 1.20pm and we boarded the bus to the ferry terminal. i'm starting to miss him already. took a picture in the ferry. it's like sending off your boyfriend to somewhere far far away. totally jaded man!

then we were seperated. he joins his company for the first time. while i, alone, all alone, who stupidly didnt think of bringing kai wei to tekong with me, went along with the crowd also with that great sense of awkwardness and the super uncomfortable thought that after today, baby will be gone for 2 weeks. nevertheless, i knew i had to be there. so i chiong! along with the crowd. haha!

first stop: boarded a bus, receiving a gift pack of a 'fudak' tissue paper, ice mountain and a packet of julie's peanut butter cookies.

then i looked around. and i saw in other people's git pack, i thought to myself " fuck! there's the oreo ones!" hahas. not that i really wanted the oreo cookies instead, the thought was just for entertainment purposes. can you see how bored i was along that i had to find such cheap entertainment for myself? LOL.

then i walked around the camp. i looked at their bunk. mmm, "quite promising..!" i thought to myself. because the area was clean and hygenic. "not bad! not bad!" i thought. until rui xing complained to me at night that his pillows were yellowish and disgusting. hahas. then i knew, the tour was all an act! LOL. it's just a show room!

then procedded to look at a list of items they'll be getting. and the food menu as well. after that. i was roughly around 3 plus already. then they brought us to a canteen. we're supposed to stay there for 35 mins before we proceed to the auditorium where i'll see my baby take the oath to singapore. i sat on one of the tables. i felt so awkward. because nobody else sat with me. i was there. alone. i initially thought there will be people like me, whom girlfriends of the army boys have no one else too, and i was even thinking of making friends. but i was one of my kind. the only girlfriend with no parents around. sigh. so i took out my mp3, quietly sitting down, with a growling stomach, listened my way through that 35mins in solace. so bored. and every single minute i was thinking if my boy would come out soon.

in the audi. I SAW MY HONEY! IN THAT GREEN STRIPED POLO! but i acted cool. i showed him a 'L' sign. (: soone we watched a video (and to be frank, i felt like crying when i saw it, not because i am missing rui xing, but because the tape quite touching ah.. HAHAHHAA) I KNOW DAMN LOSER RIGHT, BUT WHATEVER. lol.

here comes the climax: the oath taking ceremony. it was damn hilarious. i know its supposed to be solemn and strict but i cant help but laugh. hahas. because it started out like this

officer "repeat after me... I, "
boys" I!"
officer " NRIC NUMBER."
boys " SxxxxxxxX!"
officer " NAME"
boys " xxxxxx xxxxx xxxxx xxxxx"

HAHAHAHAHAHA! every body was practically saying in different velocity and some names were longer, some shorter. you wont understand, unless you're there man! HAHAS.

then we're supposed to meet up with our boys and have lunch together. BUT, SOMETHING FUNNY HAPPENED AGAIN!

they all cutely, with shirts all tucked in like they're damn kuku head, stood in attention along the corridors, and as their family members got past, they pick up their bags and go to the canteen. the food was platable. but it was only sweetest because i'm there, eating with honey. and i'm proud to be the one sending him off.

Darling i miss you so. i love you.

and i hate to say this, but the BMT bag they're carrying, is really cannot-make-it LOH! hahahas. really like those national day parade free bags they give out. but still, he looks okay taking it from right to left.

bye my love.

&im first to leave tekong. overslept on the train to bugis, all the way to tiong baru. 4/5 stops ahead. LOL. met kai wei. reminded that i stil have friends. hahas. thought honey is my everything. *cant' get him off my head*!

went to mos burger, saw xia xue with her boyfriend. liang jing ru aka fish leong is also there. went haji lane. saw people smoking sisha for the first time. some cigarette like indulgent drug but with flavours. messy place. nothing much there.

feel empty. i rejoice when darling called me at night. i held onto the phone since 9pm, and never want to put it into my bag for the fear of him calling. (: went home at 11pm. (: and kor kor came back to accompany me hahas.

tried out my new bio essence face lifting cream bought together with kaiwei, it worked! 1cm gone from my face! hahas.

confession: i did have second thoughts about going to tekong along with honey because i felt very awkward that i'll be alone for most of the journey. but then again, i wanted badly to see the living conditions there. when i was there, i looked around, there were a pathetic handful whose parents nor girlfriend were there, and i knew i had made a right decision, luckily i went (: then my baby wouldnt be so lonely! at least i'm there! (:

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

today is definitely worth celebrating, because school ends at 1pm, or rather 1.10pm to be more exact, if you're the more calculative one. anyway, the more disappointing side of my celebration would be the fact that there's not many 1.10pm run-away-from-school anymore, but lets just not dampen our moods with the screwed up future, &just focus on what's worth rejoicing about. not like there's alot of things that i am happy about, boyfriend seeing the green is one perfect illustration of the possibility of me crying for fortnights as if i lost my kin. then again, he's coming out on the 1st fortnight later, so pardon my exaggeration. (:

met boyfriend. in Khatib. drank ourselves drunk reveling in the sweetness of the atmosphere and more literally, the drink itself. went to Immigrations &Checkpoint Authority (ICA) to ask some little questions about the conversion of my passport to a technologically loaded boimetric one as well as some other general doubts about the making of a new one.

proceddedd to buy some army stuff for boyfriend. gonna see him in gray singlet and brown tshirt. gosh! he's gonna be a man soon!

he ate char siew rice some where nearby and we had waffles. i tell you. the TV shows glorifying food all around singapore is but a sham. i tried the Belgium chocolate shop waffles and the chocolate dip. maybe it's my tastebuds rejecting the taste of it. but i swear, it totally sucks. the chocolate was maybe more acceptable, but the waffles, so hard'LAO HONG' jaw breaking....! terrible. worse than prima deli's or the worst waffle you've ever tasted. yes, its worse than that. hahas.

thereafter, we're supposed to return to lavender. i lead the way. boyfriend was apprehensive about the direction we're heading. he kept ranting and i swore with my life i'm correct

" i swear with my life i'm correct! just follow me darling! "
he replied without having to think twice, "huh, your life got so invaluable or not?!"

=.=

okay nevermind, so i laughed it off. and he followed me anyway. then after a distance, he was like" are you sure were going the right direction?! ........." and he yanked away

"I SWEAR WITH MY LIFE I AM CORRECT! " and i continued swearing with other stuff when he swore my swearing made my life is cheap.

i decided to believe him. i walked his direction. he was correct. (damn..) hahahahaa. then he started mocking, and i started laugghing like really hard. and he went " darling! i told you you were wrong! you're really one of a kind eh! i never seen such a person like you! you are wrong and yet you so confidently claim you're correct! i wonder why i follow you in the first place. i wonder where you get your confidence from. HAHAHAH. woah you're really one of a kind man. i bet there's nobody like you." and he went in circle with just these few phrases. trust me. he did just thatt. and i laughed at myself. for it was so funny. (: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and when he said " i wonder where you get your confidence from eh?!"

I SWEAR HE SOUNDED LIKE MS AMINAH lah! hahahs

and there i go to bugis and reveal my auntie self. any thing free, just take. (: going to shop for a watch now. a cheapo watch. (:

Monday, September 8, 2008

(:

sometimes i wish you were more expressive

Saturday, September 6, 2008

wasted day. sleep vice.

rui xing's sister's birthday! but we did nothing. there goes the durian cake chance darling.

and we did nothing today. i slept the whole day, throw tantrums because of the heat and so intolerating stupid people like the auntie in the coffee shop. argh. prata in the night and the time with rx is definitely a walk to remember, and apparently we've experienced like so many times of such, but every single time is distinct and memorable.

i love trips to supermarkets. and we cooked the most successful fried hotdog rice today. darling, i swear it's the best i've ever ate(:

7 days to green. 7 days to hairless.

Friday, September 5, 2008

NEC wall-e

ramli burger raised it's prices. there goes our cheap lunch. (: special chicken for 2. and hello kitty window browsing.

and there rx go, to his house to dress up for the NEC wall E show! and in the meantime, i've met up with xian to take a walk around. (: had some really nice mango dessert in some corner of far east. what i love about it is the durian roll which is so soft to the touch. i got really facinated with it
haha. and rx came along to join us shortly after. AHHHH! MY BOYFRIEND IS CUTE!

darling. u were so man! when u have to shut me off by pulling me to long john's for a 20 min wait just for a piece of chicken. LOL. and cousin joined us. shuai.

wall e was interesting i would say. throughout the movie you could only hear "wall-e" and "eva"
COOL!

honey, you were most handsome tonight. and the toshiba girl is no match for me i would say. sorry for the rundown for tonight shuai, and your evening partner was most ugly. talk like cheena, look like auntie, act like a know-it-all..... just her luck to have stepped on my tail. (:

honey hooked on call of duty4, and i, magnanimously, gave him time to play all he can.
8daystogreen.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

bowling

bowling with jia min and kai wei! yay! we pinned our hopes high, hoping there was nobody there. but to our horror, there was BOWLFEST! hahas. yishun safra, the place decided on, was filled with people! we were like "OHMYGOD!" but we went over, being noobs, stood there stupidly, participating in lucky draws and bowled with kids.

the best part. IT'S ALL FOR FREE!

when we first stepped in,
"woah, who suggested this place?"
i pin pointed jia min "jia min la! you say this place cheapest!"
she replied " yeah! correct wad! really cheapest! dont even have to pay!"

HAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHHAHA.

and a small boy, carried home a bowling pin won from the lucky draw. i wished i had snatched it from him. damn. i'm regretting it now. haha.

THE BET: winner buy dinner, loser buy drinks.

THE OUTCOME: winner rui xing, loser kai wei

THE DINNER: new york new york

THE DRINK : coffee bean

(: today is most fulfilling.

went over to bugis at night. and bought some panties. i got a bright green and a violet. woo hoo. sexy! bought brother's girlfriend one too. so in the mood

and darling, you suck at scissors paper stone. the starbucks people will laugh at you. (:
our red and blue sock. DONT LOSE IT ya?

you're the man.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

bowling






























popeye the sailor man

changi airport. to eat popeye!

met rx's mummy. which is (thick skinnedly) my mother-in-law-to-be.

darling, you can't push me away. hahas.

and dont accuse me of lying to you. popeye is indeed nicer than KFC alright!
we walked around. colouring, bought crystal jade, bought tampons, pimple gel.

who else would shop in changi? LOL.
&airconditioning was really cold.

thereafter, rx went home, nothing else to do. went home again. darling, your woodlands home(:

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Monday, September 1, 2008

last day of comex

worked like a dog. but no sales. i've only sold 2. one ran away. sadly. because he didnt have money. OH MAN! one other gave to rx. oh wells. (:

i like the mi fen though. nice!

chatted with people, made some friends like zhu xian. the first time she saw me she went "you just came ar!" when it as already 8pm. hahas. you see the humour? nah, you wont understand. my boyfriend became the"legendary 13" somehow. LOL. but sadly was the top 2nd sales man. it's okay honey, salesman is not your destiny, for flying is.

my pilot man.

i smuggled a epson float home. so happy! and we got free movie tickets. COOL. working has never been so fun. especially when my darling si around. =p and shuai got a car. he drove us(kai wei, kai sin) to jalan kayu for dinner. COOL.