martin martin where are you. (:

i miss martin. he's the guy in black. he's my little brother, though he's 10 months older. he transferred out of YJC to TP, he was the one who made my 1st year of JC life so much more enjoyable. he was my listening ear. he was my bestest companion. but now that he's gone, there's just something not right in the school. it's that illusional emptiness in school which makes me wanna cry in the night, and everywhere when i think of him.

the impact was great martin (: but i'm glad u're doing so much better there.

what i lost most was somebody who could teach me cantonese, sombody to sing with, somebody to talk to, somebody to go esplanade when Alevels chinese was just the next day, somebody who treats me chicken rice, somebody who chats with me throughout chinese class even if we're punished.

and i miss my "leng zai" face in YJC, i miss our moments calling each other, "dai moi ju", "nei hoy ju pa" .

oh my (: how i wish we were a little smarter. but then again, if he was, he wouldnt have met his love. maybe i'll just have to wait for another outing with my leng zai. :(