what to say..

i know, it's my 5th entry. but i can't help it. can't help it to show how happy i am these days. it's what i'm afraid to say & it's what i'm afraid to experience. somebody had made me laugh and cry and angry. but somebody dosent know it. how do i reveal? what do i do? i'm confused. but my head is clear. DILEMMA! shit the feelings. what am i to say?

this should be my 4th post tonight i suppose. but i don't feel sleepy at all. no surprise. it's just a sudden relevation; who dosen't love a pretty girlfriend who's hot & sexy & slim. a bigger findout!; i'm neither nor either any of the above. :( i'm getting myself TO FULFIL one of the options whether it makes me aneroxic or bulimic or have some eating disorder or puke or gastric or fatigue or whatever, i'm gonna be in shape. VERY SOON. wait and see.