kai wei, i am here (:

today was the first time i saw kai wei cry.

when she told me what happened, it did not sound like a very serious matter, because i didn't experience the whole thing myself. Until today, i regretted not coming out yesterday to listen her out, maybe she bore it herself for too long, she cried.

her eyes were very red, and she became Rudolf in just a matter of minutes. she told me what happened, her voice jerking as she tried hard to catch breath after breath in the midst of weeping. she wept because of a broken trust, and the fear of a losing a bond between the friendship that took almost 3 years to establish, the instant humiliation when she knew it was all a 'joke', a joke they failed to understand that it would hurt her so much. when i thought it was easy to forgive and advised her to.

i realised it was not as easy as i thought. she was thinking of all the ways to help her 'friend in need'. she was even thinking of saving a dollar a day to help her 'friend-in-need'. (this was the most touching part of all her speech) Her voice trembled as she poured it all out, i heard her, as her heart spoke when she wasn't speaking, the ones who made her cry really meant a lot to her; i felt it all, i felt her pain, and i cried too.

when she was crying, i was afraid people might think i bullied her. Haha, no la, joking!

kai wei,

you are a real gem. don't blame yourself for what have resulted in because you did not tolerate it. just believe that things will change. understand that they do treasure you as one of them, perhaps they did not really think about the consequences; perhaps they have not realised how much you trust them that's why they did this. maybe forgiving may not seem easy, but u know you've forgiven them long ago. maybe the only problem now is how to reconcile. but don't think of it as a problem, because it is not. time will help you solve this. and maybe their initiatives will help to solve this. so don't brood over it. i don't wish to see you cry again. you made me cry too, monster.... haha. i have a house phone now. i can call you anytime. (: a $12 house phone. i'm here alright? hope i am of use! you will graduate with them, take pretty pictures, wearing ugly SP graduation suits, do stupid stunts after that, go up the stage together, it will all happen. believe that it will (: