thanks to people who are so so nice to call me up. at 6.25am, slightly before the time i should wake up, Patrick called, yes, from Aussie. then later on, at 6.30, kai wei called me too. followed by jia min's message which rang my phone, then dad called at 6.35am.
very useful alarm clocks. (: of course, i need to first set phone to the loudest ringing mode before it can disturb me from my deepest slumber.
grabbed a bread from breadtalk (nice breakfast!) and red bull for my afternoon paper. (:
i did a migration question. i think i did quite well. but my comprehension part i think i screwed it up, because i only answered a very small part of the question. not fully. for the last 8 mark question. there wasnt alot of time left.
geog paper at 2pm, totally screwed. but nevertheless i think i can pass. I THINK SO only. i shouldnt pin my hope high as it always results otherwise.
after school, keith taught me some stuff. and a group of us, yi ting, laura, keith, ben and reuben went to burger king. along thr way, we were sharing stories of the infamous SAW I to V sequels. how gory and ingenius Jigsaw carried out his 'games'. and of course, what is there to see when he has died, and what legacy did he leave behind? omg. i wont dare to even think. we proposed to watch in reuben's house someday. shucks. another one of my bad ideas again. i'm instilling fear within myself. OH NO.
keith's strayed interpretation of azwan's words also made my day man. they told me one day azwan was saying, " sometimes at night when i feel bored, i'll go supper with my girlfriend."
keith heard it as " i'll go fuck my girlfriend."
HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHAHA. WTH.
&baby, i wish you were hear to share my joy of completing the 3 papers today with me. and even out my fear and uncertainties. & the looking forward to tomorrow's math paper too. i missed you so so much.
i couldnt have hanged on, if i didnt have you to love.
Monday, November 3, 2008
doomed
sigh, doomsday. i think i'm finished. prepare my coffin.
i think cambridge think we're scotch brite.
NO, i cant remember so much stuff. why read all these when we hardly encounter such stuff liek droughts, and cyclones, and whatever. like there's an earthquake in singapore? NO! GEOG SUCKS. so is GP.
so, do i give up?
honey, sorry that i'll have to disappoint you this time. there's just not enough time. not enough at all. not even if u give me another month. it's just too crazy for 2 years stuff. o levels can be read in a week.
a levels, seriously need the full 2 years.
& when the stressess sets in, the tears well up in regret. helplessly helpless, they once again, climb out of their world of unhappiness, in search of happier moments. but they realised they couldnt turn back. and jumps to their deaths.
i might just redo a levels. because i just need time.
darling, i'm calling for you, every day, every minute, could you hear me?
i think cambridge think we're scotch brite.
NO, i cant remember so much stuff. why read all these when we hardly encounter such stuff liek droughts, and cyclones, and whatever. like there's an earthquake in singapore? NO! GEOG SUCKS. so is GP.
so, do i give up?
honey, sorry that i'll have to disappoint you this time. there's just not enough time. not enough at all. not even if u give me another month. it's just too crazy for 2 years stuff. o levels can be read in a week.
a levels, seriously need the full 2 years.
& when the stressess sets in, the tears well up in regret. helplessly helpless, they once again, climb out of their world of unhappiness, in search of happier moments. but they realised they couldnt turn back. and jumps to their deaths.
i might just redo a levels. because i just need time.
darling, i'm calling for you, every day, every minute, could you hear me?
Sunday, November 2, 2008
really bonkers
i'm trying hard to think. really very very hard. but all i think of is the fact that i might go blank, that very instant in the exam hall.
i'm very nervous. i've got 3 papers tomorrow. GP paper 1 at 8am. GP paper 2 at 10.15am. geography paper at 2pm. in between if u really calculate, i 've got only another hour in between to prepare my paper.
suddenly i feel like i have no boyfriend. i feel like boyfriend has disappeared. it's a very scary feeling. darling, please come back soon. i'm not very strong. be my pillars.
fei fei makes me think of you. i've chucked him somewhere in a corner where i can hardly see him. it's a very cruel thing to do to him. but i'm afraid i might just cry. i already feel like. i can no longer differentiate the feeling of missing you and stress for exams. it might be a fusion of both. but rationally, i cannot think properly already.
sometimes, if u really think, it's stupid to pay $400++ for this stupid exam which will cause you much paranoia. then again, it's stupid to think this way. OH WELL, life's like that.
& baby, i really really hope, during this time, u would just give me all the time you have, to get me through this instead of facing DOTA and CALL OF DUTY4, and WARLOCKS the whole day. if you could, you'll have no idea, how much more i'll appreciate you.
i love you honey. hope you'll come back from field camp soon.
i'm very nervous. i've got 3 papers tomorrow. GP paper 1 at 8am. GP paper 2 at 10.15am. geography paper at 2pm. in between if u really calculate, i 've got only another hour in between to prepare my paper.
suddenly i feel like i have no boyfriend. i feel like boyfriend has disappeared. it's a very scary feeling. darling, please come back soon. i'm not very strong. be my pillars.
fei fei makes me think of you. i've chucked him somewhere in a corner where i can hardly see him. it's a very cruel thing to do to him. but i'm afraid i might just cry. i already feel like. i can no longer differentiate the feeling of missing you and stress for exams. it might be a fusion of both. but rationally, i cannot think properly already.
sometimes, if u really think, it's stupid to pay $400++ for this stupid exam which will cause you much paranoia. then again, it's stupid to think this way. OH WELL, life's like that.
& baby, i really really hope, during this time, u would just give me all the time you have, to get me through this instead of facing DOTA and CALL OF DUTY4, and WARLOCKS the whole day. if you could, you'll have no idea, how much more i'll appreciate you.
i love you honey. hope you'll come back from field camp soon.
OH NO
I'm going bonkers, because time isnt enough. and it didnt wait for me. i dont know why must i keep learning my lessons the harder way. perhaps i'm simply too lazy. of course, there are other underlying factors behind. yes, the examiners wouldnt know.
and too bad that i let them affect me.
and today i put my alarm at 11.30pm. it was realyl a rude awakening. i didnt dare to sleep back. this is the first time i woke up so readily.
simply because i was afraid i didnt have enough time to study. i'm not going out today. if you want to enourage me perhaps, u may drop me a really short call rather than a message, i might just not even look at my phone at all. and a really short call, like 10 seconds, or slightly more, because i have to combat with time.
i really wished rui xing could be here with me. i'm so rushing i typed all these in less than 2 mins. bye.
and too bad that i let them affect me.
and today i put my alarm at 11.30pm. it was realyl a rude awakening. i didnt dare to sleep back. this is the first time i woke up so readily.
simply because i was afraid i didnt have enough time to study. i'm not going out today. if you want to enourage me perhaps, u may drop me a really short call rather than a message, i might just not even look at my phone at all. and a really short call, like 10 seconds, or slightly more, because i have to combat with time.
i really wished rui xing could be here with me. i'm so rushing i typed all these in less than 2 mins. bye.
a short shop
my day started off with going to raffles place for an important event. then went to marina square to get my breakfast cum lunch with laura. and i saw this really nice bag! it's brand's charis asher. i like the number 4. and i'm so gonna get it. $79.90 thank cute honey. (: actually i would like to get 6, but they dont have stocks. sadly.
thereafter, went raffles place to study. studied hard. very hard. dead tired. BUT, we cracked several jokes. cause we tend to side track to relax for a while. we were talking about the eurasians having mutiple christian names putting together to form a name. like shaun ryan peter and chester william francis. so laura told us, once, our JC friend who wanted to perform during teachers day, is called amadea. she has 5 names put together. and they wasnt sure if to just announce amadea or her full 5 names " amadea sitorius sth sth sth". because if the MC were to announce her full name, people might think that there's gonna be 5 people performing on stage! HAHAHAHAHAA...
LEFT TO MEET UP WITH BROTHER.
u know, you cant exactly blame me. but it's just a girl's thing to do. i spent only 1 hour to get all of these i swear, for only $82 altogether (:
the $82 collection. you should have seen my brother's girlfriend. she bought even more. she bought something worth $160. twice of mine. wow. *clap*
oh my god, i'm so gonna sell it and make money. (: here's a mask, mascara, foundation base, cleanser, and eye and lip makeup remover.
this is my sliding pact and foundation refil. it comes witha an extra sponge. (: i am so happy. original price is $52! and refil supposed to cost $41. =p
this is my new makeup base. i love the colour man! original price costs i think around $40++. forgot. bro's gf did mention.
OH! MY LAVENDER LOOSE POWDER! i love the shimmers it contains. and softer than sentosa's siloso beach. fragrant and it comes with a travel container with a extra sponge and a cute little scoop. (: costs $40++ supposedly!
my favourite of all. also a make up base. but this has shimmers. and easy to apply. originally $40++
my most needed thing of all. blusher! costs $30++ originally.
altogether, i saved at least $200 in total (: isnt it a good buy?!
owe it to her, my brother's girlfriend, who is working there now. yeah, the one looking a little grouchy. but she's really nice. (: and brother, busy away with his subway sandwich.
our dinner.
but i wasnt exactly happy. darling, i feel empty without you. i long for your return. anyway, jun jie sms-ed me today, thinking i was you, asking me about your field camp. so i replied, "haha, i dont know, swee hin went for it like today, he'l come back to civilisation on thursday. heard he's got nice rations like rendang chicken, but he prefers his cookies and daily serving of maggi noodles."
he was surprised." oh my. you're the girlfriend?"
"yes i am. you dont have his number? 9******* but he surrendered his phone this morning. you may ask again when he comes back."
and people tend to sms me wrongly today, as my brother did. he sent this to me " dear dear i finish lesson le:) later go home bath then go find u le :)"
i replied this to disturb him " dear dear, you sent wrong person le :) "
HAHAHAHAHHAA.
& i could just die right here right now, of the interminable yearning for you& it has caused much emotional struggle within myself. i make fei fei hug me in place of you every night (YES, A little sick, if you do know who is fei fei, i know). still sweet, but it's different, not because it's a soft toy, but because, it's just not you (:
thereafter, went raffles place to study. studied hard. very hard. dead tired. BUT, we cracked several jokes. cause we tend to side track to relax for a while. we were talking about the eurasians having mutiple christian names putting together to form a name. like shaun ryan peter and chester william francis. so laura told us, once, our JC friend who wanted to perform during teachers day, is called amadea. she has 5 names put together. and they wasnt sure if to just announce amadea or her full 5 names " amadea sitorius sth sth sth". because if the MC were to announce her full name, people might think that there's gonna be 5 people performing on stage! HAHAHAHAHAA...LEFT TO MEET UP WITH BROTHER.
u know, you cant exactly blame me. but it's just a girl's thing to do. i spent only 1 hour to get all of these i swear, for only $82 altogether (:
the $82 collection. you should have seen my brother's girlfriend. she bought even more. she bought something worth $160. twice of mine. wow. *clap*
oh my god, i'm so gonna sell it and make money. (: here's a mask, mascara, foundation base, cleanser, and eye and lip makeup remover.
this is my sliding pact and foundation refil. it comes witha an extra sponge. (: i am so happy. original price is $52! and refil supposed to cost $41. =p
this is my new makeup base. i love the colour man! original price costs i think around $40++. forgot. bro's gf did mention.
OH! MY LAVENDER LOOSE POWDER! i love the shimmers it contains. and softer than sentosa's siloso beach. fragrant and it comes with a travel container with a extra sponge and a cute little scoop. (: costs $40++ supposedly!
my favourite of all. also a make up base. but this has shimmers. and easy to apply. originally $40++
my most needed thing of all. blusher! costs $30++ originally.altogether, i saved at least $200 in total (: isnt it a good buy?!
owe it to her, my brother's girlfriend, who is working there now. yeah, the one looking a little grouchy. but she's really nice. (: and brother, busy away with his subway sandwich.our dinner.
but i wasnt exactly happy. darling, i feel empty without you. i long for your return. anyway, jun jie sms-ed me today, thinking i was you, asking me about your field camp. so i replied, "haha, i dont know, swee hin went for it like today, he'l come back to civilisation on thursday. heard he's got nice rations like rendang chicken, but he prefers his cookies and daily serving of maggi noodles."
he was surprised." oh my. you're the girlfriend?"
"yes i am. you dont have his number? 9******* but he surrendered his phone this morning. you may ask again when he comes back."
and people tend to sms me wrongly today, as my brother did. he sent this to me " dear dear i finish lesson le:) later go home bath then go find u le :)"
i replied this to disturb him " dear dear, you sent wrong person le :) "
HAHAHAHAHHAA.
& i could just die right here right now, of the interminable yearning for you& it has caused much emotional struggle within myself. i make fei fei hug me in place of you every night (YES, A little sick, if you do know who is fei fei, i know). still sweet, but it's different, not because it's a soft toy, but because, it's just not you (:
Saturday, November 1, 2008
depart
MY clown friends. hahas. this is in causeway point by the way. honey, i didnt betray you! it was them, it was them. they asked to take a picture with me. HAHAHA
woke up damn early to go orchard to get my makeup stuffs. i bought a foundation, refil pack, loose powder, make up base, blusher, make up remover, mascara, all for just $67! WOW! & it's Laneige. (:
went to school after. consultations, and self study, and lots of stuff. i am so damn tired. i wished i had more sleep. tomorrow, again, i have to wake up early. i wished i had less commitments. really. and i hate the fact that it's the actual a levels.
met kai wei for pasta (: HI BFF! LONG TIME NO SEE!
and SIA interview is almost beyond comprehension
from today onwards, i cant speak to my beloved anymore because he's on a field camp. why why? when i need him most?
but i understand honey. (: really. because of what you said, that you're sorry to put me through all these. but then again silly boy, why say sorry? i chose to love you in the first place (: what to do? but u have no idea how much i miss you now, and how much i will miss you later on.
-Oh, how do i live without you?
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