trip to the moon

弄我生气的是你，弄我笑的也是你。我真得疯了。

never mind that you sometimes, overridden by your masculine ego; even have to argue with me about the very infinitesimal stuff we talk about. never mind that i have to swallow my pride just to make you feel happy.

but why cant you just be more sensitive?

不过，要是你问我，为什么还喜欢你，我会这样回答你：

"我喜欢你的一切，喜欢你的可爱，喜欢你的笑，你的帅， 你左边的痣，你的好脾气， 你的坏脾气，你的自私，你少数微妙的浪漫，你的好，你的坏；统统都把我给迷住了。''

但你要知道，我说得出一千一万个喜欢你的理由，不是因这些而爱上你，而是因为爱你而喜欢你的一切。

你要是读了这个后，还不了解我的心，那时你的损失。我也经过那么多，已经累了，现在也只能望你会像以前那样，对我无微不至，对我的那份无私的爱，那段日子是那么的刻苦铭心。我永远也不会忘记。

现在我再作最后的垂死挣扎。要是我所告诉你与做的一切也无法让你再对我有所尊重，有所改变，我会放弃。 让我只留下对你的好印象离开，不是最好的解决方案了吗？

i used to be your world. now, i am almost nothing. maybe not so true of what you really think. but this is the impression you've been giving me. so, dont keep putting the blame on me that i dont understand you at all.

read this seriously. if you've not been taking all my other posts seriously, do take this with a really heavy heart. because i'll never joke about us, neither do i wish to see that you take our relationship lightly, not that you have been. but every single word i say, please think it through. i dont know how to tell you straight into your face, because that is simply impossible. you never wanted to listen. when i tell you i'm hurt, you never took it seriously, when i try to make you happy, it becomes irritating. 8 months ago you made me feel like i am your world, the next minute i know, now, i feel so insignificant.

if i'm really such a nuisance to you. tell me. and i'll leave.

because work and game and dignity and ego seems much more important than a crazy girlfriend. & never turn back.