just 2nd day of school and i'm sick. JC life, as usual, had caused the deaths of many. i mean it literally as well as abstractly. darn.
as usual, the route alone to polyclinics had been sort of a habit formed since last year. the last time i ever remembered anyone accompanying me to a doctor, was last year. when i was still being loved, by him, and yet i didnt appreciate enough and still ended up quarrelling, angry at him for not being considerate enough. i didnt see what was good, presented right in front of me. i'm not sorry, i just merely missed that kind of feeling, when he took charge of my life for the moment. really missed it =/
and my demanding self, had not left me. yet. maybe it would. maybe it's dependent on my company instead. but for sure, i hate to go to the doc alone, as much as i hate the wrong company to go along with me.
you have to be special. its not just anyone.
as usual, the route alone to polyclinics had been sort of a habit formed since last year. the last time i ever remembered anyone accompanying me to a doctor, was last year. when i was still being loved, by him, and yet i didnt appreciate enough and still ended up quarrelling, angry at him for not being considerate enough. i didnt see what was good, presented right in front of me. i'm not sorry, i just merely missed that kind of feeling, when he took charge of my life for the moment. really missed it =/
and my demanding self, had not left me. yet. maybe it would. maybe it's dependent on my company instead. but for sure, i hate to go to the doc alone, as much as i hate the wrong company to go along with me.
you have to be special. its not just anyone.
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